Mrs Krap is probably not going to make it.

Thankfully, I learned long ago to keep my remarks to sincere and heartfelt "I'm so sorry for your loss" and "If there is anything I can do just ask", it keeps me from saying anything stupid and offensive.

 

Old Forester 1920 (115 proof): One shot or maybe a bit more sipped slowly before bedtime. Clears the throat and dulls the senses. Chase that with one aspirin (if that doesn't bother your stomach) and turn out the lights to try to get some rest.

 

Just go easy on the Aspirin if on blood thinners, but if on them, you probably are aware of that.

 

I'm old enough to be kicking old age in the ass now ,, and lucky enough not to have to be on any steady medications.
Been lucky about that ,, but also old enough that it could happen any day tho .

 

Mortality is finite, one can either conserve what one has by being prudent about health and wellness decisions or live dangerously, and hope that one beats the odds.

 

I can guarantee ya ,,, I've been beating the odds ,,, but they are catching up a little,, mortality happens.

 

My heart goes out to you,
Been there done that.

 

Sorry I am so late. I'm just not online very often.

I am godawful sorry she died and praising God she got time to communicate her wishes and go her own way.

My sister cratered in liver cancer and at the end of hospice had an amazing lucid 10 minutes to communicate to all of us individually her love and wishes although her body was destroyed. Right after that she was gone.

So crazy looking online friend of mine, if you need to talk to someone...this old man in Texas will go outside and build a fire and listen if you need to talk at/to/with someone. You can even say bad words without surprising me with new ones (assumed)

Hit me up for the phone number or go deep dive finding my HAM creds for a distraction

 

Maybe no new bad words but maybe some combinations you have not heard before

 

I wrote this about eight months after Jennifer died. It is still true for me but getting better.

GRIEF is not a visitor,
IT moves in and finds a home in you.
NOT always by your side,
BUT always close enough to whisper a memory,
AND break your heart, again.

 

I don't remember where I heard this but it came to mind the other day. The Love and Joy with her is but a bright moment, the pain of losing her is an eternity. Maybe not exact but nails how I am feeling.

 

Although the pain and grief may seem like it will last an eternity, it will eventually pass like a ship navigating a storm into calmer waters...your metaphorical heart may be breaking, just take care of your health to ensure that your physical heart doesn't also break...
DeeAnn wouldn't want that for you.

@Kamp Krap
Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy - St Vincent's Heart Health

 

Since I am still working for The Man, I can claim continuing education credits from an out of state private contractor.

 

Sorry, I am just seeing this. Having computer issues. My sincere sympathy goes out to you. I'm so very sorry for your loss but also thankful that you had someone so special to share life with. Hugs and prayers from Kansas.

 

Well it has been two weeks almost to the minute that I was pulling out of the driveway heading to Evansville to inform the Doctors as to what my decision was about turning off the IV and Pulling the breathing tube. Two weeks later it is only better so long as I am focused on and consumed by doing stuff and working on stuff and FINDING STUFF. I finally got my 5G internet paid and turned back on Friday afternoon. I don't have the hangup with 5G that some people have. I just strongly dislike that I only get the 4G in the lease contract for free and not the 5G Service so I have to pay for the 5G and just use the Verizo prepay with Auto Pay. Or did until the Bank for OUR Joint checking account froze the acct and locked me out of it until I produce a death certificate. No problem except that everything that tried to auto pay was declined and I did NOT have the security pin number required to access the acct and change the pre pay auto payment to MY personal Checking acct. Long story short my lawyer got the Joint acct unlocked to me and unfrozen in a 5 minute phone call to the bank management. But without the Verizon security pin I still could not restart the auto pay. Normally I could care less if I have highspeed wireless or not. Right NOW it is a must as I have to use my scanner/faxer to send volumes of documents to way to many places and using the Slowspeed Hughes it takes around 10-30 minutes to send anything over 1 page.

IF YOU HAVE NOT done so already you and your spouse should write down every acct and every username, Password and pin number that goes with each acct.!!!! Trust me if one you dies with out warning you will be saving each others heads from exploding! Dee did a great job except for her phone, my 5G Jet pack and the Direct TV. The Direct TV is was going away anyway, after they called me demanding payment for the auto pay that was declined and would not let me make payment with out the 4 digit acct security PIN Direct TV went away a lot sooner than I I was going to axe them I am NOT paying $180 per Month for something I have not had on for more than 2 hours since Dee Passed away. TV just ain't my thang!!!

It is when I stop working on all of the stuff that it gets Real and Very Rough. LOL I took last Friday, Yesterday and today to NOT work on the stuff. I logically can't see where I am not going to feel cheated, robbed and bitter about how it all went down. SHE BEAT THE CANCER! I now know that it was 100% complication from the Surgery back in April. She was getting better by the day, gaining weight, feeling better and doing more.......... Until she wasn't and passed away 2 days after.

 

Sorry I’m a tad late and very sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace.

 

Sound advice Krap. I have an envelope for the other half so she can get to everything. Or if I become incapacitated.

Time heals, but will never cure. 3 years later and I still pick up the phone with the intention of calling my Dad. Stay busy and come often to let us share fellowship here brother.

 

It’s tough buddy, I know. Stay busy. Plan tomorrow to the point you have no idle time to think and just make it through that one day.

 

Good advice.
People always talk about getting over grief. The reality is, you never get over it. You just learn to live with it as a new normal part of your life. That takes time. Give yourself plenty of grace during this time.